I always loved writing. I remember when I was a teenager, I was writing songs just to get lucky with girls; it worked perfectly and they melted with my words. Of course, my song writing has evolved beyond the teenage dream of getting laid.  Now, my creations are more horror than anything else.  I think my death metal band may have a big influence with this. But I’m the type of person who is never satisfied with what I’m doing, and I get bored easily. Songwriting  is just not enough.

Three years ago, I started writing blogs everywhere on the internet. I gave myself goals, but I could never follow-through. It was the lack of ideas but mostly the lack confidence that made me fail. But I know that I can only be a better writer by writing. I just have to write the bad parts out.

About 3 months ago, I made the scariest decision I had to make in my life. I decided to make a career change, and I’m going to do it by writing. I’m a realist. I know that there’s a ton of work to get where I want to go, and I’m willing to do it all.

Other than singing(screaming), I’m a 10 year veteran in the IT world. I have great career, but my mind always craves creativity and the lack of sends me in a dream state. I just have nourish my cravings and I’ll feel more alive than I feel right now. I would feel that I’ve accomplished something that not many have done.

To send me off properly, I had to relearn grammar. Grammar is like a musical instrument. You first learn how it works, and then you create. Before I started re-learning the grammar, I thought I was good, but I soon realized I didn’t know anything. From then on, the internet became my best friend. I was reading any grammar related sites that I could find and read some more, but at first, it didn’t help my writing. Then, I found a book on writing that my girl-friend had, so I decided to get a pen and write down everything that I didn’t know on paper. Quickly, I realized that I had copied most of the book. Right then, I saw improvement in my writing. As I’m a visual person, I need to see things before I can to learn them.  By putting things to paper, it made everything clearer—almost everything.

Now, as I read blog posts, I can see grammatical mistakes everywhere. It’s insane, the Internet is full of bullshit and bad writing, but if you know nothing about grammar, you probably don’t even notice. I got a second book on grammar and style. I copied that book too. Now, I’m spending about 2 hours a day just reading about grammar and trying to write it correctly. I’m a very determined person.

Since writing is a my dream, I have to write everything. So I’ll write my journey through hell and see what happen a year from now. I have a lot of work a head, and I’m ready for anything.